I was on-call yesterday.

It was so quiet …. the silence was painful. To make things worse, three quarters of the staff in this hospital is from Kelantan and many have left or leaving before the Raya celebrations. The streets were empty and it rained heavily later in the night making the boredom and the heaviness of the heart worse. I did a laparoscopic appendectomy which just means even the operating theater was quiet.

I cannot stand this, especially after being used to a heavy busy call since my early medical years. All my doctors shudder when they are on call with me as my calls are 90% of the time very busy. But probably the other reason why I cannot stand this quietness, because my mind tends to rest in the recesses of my memory which is also too painful for me, a long unsettled issue which maybe one day ….. it is personal! Sorry!

Goodness, I must be reaching pathological levels.

Luckily, there is some church activity going on tonight and probably visit one or two of my friends — that would keep my mind off things.